When It Happens

To You

Your heart sinks as you hear the diagnosis; it’s a cancerous tumor and it must be removed as soon as possible.

Everything came to a standstill. This was the second time in my life that my soul stood still. I felt myself moving into a blanket of silence, shutting out the world around me. The words echoed inside my head, there was silence. I have cancer! It was the milestone I never expected. All I could think of was; what have I done to my body, how could I have let this happen to me?

How can I have cancer?

Things moved swiftly after the diagnosis. The surgeon advised, the tumor was 8 cm and needed to be removed as soon as possible. The cancer was only in one breast. It was only a matter of time before the other one was cancerous. Surgery, a bilateral mastectomy, and at the same time reconstruction.

It’s not all your fault

I still could not believe it! How on earth could I have a cancerous tumor. “It’s not all your fault,” the surgeon said reassuringly, “we live on a toxic planet.” Now what…

What have I done to my body?

Even if the world we live in is toxic, I thought I was eating healthy… no, I wasn’t. I was stress eating, the comfort foods, bread, pasta, sugar, starch, cheese. Never mind about food, I had to think about the surgery…

Did the cancer spread?

The machines would scan the body and be able to tell if the cancer had spread from the breast area. I knew it hadn’t, but the surgeon needed the scans before the surgery…